Love Can Be Dangerous

Bang! There goes a hit,

Pow! there goes another one.

And I don't mean glocks or shots coming out your gun.

I'm talking bout straight punches 

bruises, and blood.

I call it violence and you call it "love".

Lay your fingers on my face, to caress?

Nah, instead a cushion for you to release your stress. 

I ain't a punching bag, 

what made you think such a thing?

Walkin' around with bruises, got my face in a sting.

I'm tired of this shit, bleeding internally from such emotional damage.

You're such a fuckin' savage, damaging my insides.

Can't you see? I'm sick from all the blood cries. 

Disfiguring my body, even murdered our own baby.

No matter how hard I pleaded

Nobody would save me.

Don't you see, this ain't love, it was pleasure and games.

All the time we had couldn't measure the pain.

As if a 5 year sentence wasn't enough.

Now I hear you got your baby moms in a situation, that's tough.

I ain't hatin', I just feel bad for the two.

Good thing is I thank God I didn't end up with you.

...Melodics...

Music, Mi Amor

Have you ever been in love? Do you know what it feels to be giddy and have nervousness running though your veins as they pulsate from the feeling of loving? That skipping down the street, heart poppin' out your chest, buckled-knees type of love??? Well, in case you didn't know, I am physically, emotionally and wholeheartedly in love with music. I was conversing with a friend earlier on the word "love" and my whole outlook on romance in general. He asked, and sounded kind of confused all at the same time, "You don't like love?" I responded "Love is a four letter word to me, that's it. It's nothing but a tricky bitch." No need to lie, I'm a person of honesty. Have I been heartbroken, quite often, then again who hasn't? I have been broken down to the point where my heart is a cold, lonely place where I've locked the key inside and burned it. Yeah, all that. I know right now isn't the time for me to love another human, but when it comes to music, I'm a sucker. All I know is that no matter what I do, where I go or how I feel, music follows me. She makes me feel so uplifting, rejoices me and takes all my worries away. It's funny because I think she actually listens and plays exactly what I need to hear when I'm having my dull moments. I can't describe it. Her beats are what keep me alive, Her lyrics feed my mentality, her sound is beauty, entirely too much for eyes to see so she speaks instead, her soul is all around a state of bliss. And for all these reasons, she has my heart, completely. 

Peace, Mad Love & Melodies

Something? Or Nothing at All...

"Falling too fast
Clearly rules don't apply
Cant believe that I just met you
You got me here watching minutes pass by
Wondering when to expect you
There you go is this a dream
Looking like every picture that I've seen of you before
I've seen it all before now that its over
Should have known better
Then to think this was real
And you could be mine
Should have known better
Slowed it down
Cause I feel you needed time.
But I kept thinking
This could be something
Maybe it's nothing at all
I guess it's what we make it."
     -Drake

I took the time to type the lyrics so you could read and relate to what I'm about to write. Now, Drake is not one of my favorite artists, sorry to disappoint you Drake fans, but he does come out with catchy songs that stick to my head from time to time. This song in particular, "Something", gives me the most melancholic vibe I could possibly feel. Yeah I know what you're thinking, "Drake of all people?" but yes, he truly moved me with this one. He starts off by saying "Falling too fast, clearly rules don't apply". How many of us have been in a situation where you meet someone, start off with a great vibe, hang out a few times, everything is great on both ends and then out of no where, you get booted, without even knowing what happened? I am definitely not ashamed to say it's happened to me. What do you do to go back to those wonderful times you spent with that person, do you try to recreate those exact moments? It's very challenging, especially when the other person has made up their mind. But could it really have been "something" or was it just "nothing at all"? Some of us settle and offer whatever we can, perhaps a piece of ourselves, lowering our standards of love in order to hold on to something that quite possibly will never be there again. Is it really worth holding on to crazy dreams and believing that a person will actually fall in love with you just because you think you do everything right in the book? That's where I went wrong. Nobody wants too much, they all love a little challenge, don't you? I thought I was winning his heart over because I made myself available countless times, never saying "no" and guess what, it failed. An unsuccessful waste of time, because at the end, they want someone who has a little backbone.  I guess my point to all this is that I wish it was a little more than just "what we make it". Love is actually out there, with out me having to sacrifice my entire mind, body and soul in order for someone to love me back. He obviously wasn't the one, and I am amazing, so I have nothing left except to move on...

Peace, Mad Love & Melodies